Thursday, April 14, 2011

The "Secret" Happiest place on earth

I had the worlds most Obvious dream last night. If there were awards for easiest dream interpretation ever, my mantle would have the first place trophy sitting on it right now, all shiny and glistening. If I had a mantle, but since it is an imaginary award that I just gave myself it will fit fine on my imaginary mantle.
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I remember a lot of it, because immediately upon gaining consciousness again, I purposely began memorizing it. Even doing that, some of it got away.
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The Gist of it is this:
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My X-Wife and I were riding in a limousine to the secret entrance of Disney World. Not the secret entrance into the lot where you park your car so that you may then get on the monorail to go into Disney World, but the secret entrance actually into the park itself. It was not exactly Disney World either, but rather, a special, reserved, secret Disney World . It had giant wooden doors like you might see on a castle, and I was amazed that they just opened it right up for us.
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I remember that part distinctly.
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I don't remember how or why we got out of the Limousine, or where it and the driver went, but the next thing I remember, is My Ex- Wife and I driving around secret Disney World in my car. She was at the wheel. We even had a discussion about her wanting to drive my car, to which I agreed.
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She then lost control of the vehicle shortly after driving, and drove it into a little Gully. It wasn't a huge ditch, but it was big enough to cause some damage to the vehicle, it caused the steering to become difficult and dinged up the fender a little bit. We got out together, and assessed the damage, and decided we could go on until we could get it into the shop. My Ex- Wife specifically apologized for the accident and admitted to her mistake in running it into the gully so carelessly. We again discussed who would be driving and she still wanted the wheel, and I did not argue with her. We then went on our way again (I wish I could remember where it was in secret Disney World that we were going, but I just can't, I do remember however, that we did have some type of a purpose or destination that we were trying to find)
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As we were going on our little mission in Secret Disney World, whatever it was, She was now driving on a flat, wide open grass field and we were heading directly for a Huge ditch, the drop off was probably at least 6 feet, almost like a little mini, cliff. I remember seeing it coming up and distinctly told her from my position in the passenger seat, that she needed to watch out for the edge or we will crash again much more severely. In the dream though it was much more direct and with less detail. I just said "don't drive over the edge" or something to that effect, When I told her that, it was absolutely inconceivable that the cliff posed any type of threat to us because to me, in my dream, it was so very clear what the danger was, and I remember thinking it would be no problem for her to just make a right turn and then run parallel with the edge. She did begin lackadaisically, to make the right turn to avoid driving directly over the side. I remember this being kind of amazing to me, that she could be that horrible of a driver, and not realize the threat, and that her nonchalance was quite inadequate for the situation. As we were now almost driving parallel to the edge, the left front wheel went over the side, she had tried to turn, but did not make it sharp enough. This caused the rest of the car to flip over the cliff and land on the drivers side doors and sheet metal. The car was absolutely crushed.
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We got out of the car, neither of us was injured, but the car was in a spot that we needed lots of help to first of all, get it out of the huge ditch, and then we were going to have quite a bill to get the thing fixed and be without the car for a long time.
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The next thing I remember was the two of us in a building, still within secret Disney World, trying to make arrangements to take care of the problem. I remember being dismayed about her driving ability as well, and asking her why. I distinctly remember thinking how stupid it was that she had not turned the vehicle more sharply and that I had clearly known in my heart that had I been driving, neither of the two accidents would have occurred.
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While inside the building, we tried to find someone with a crane that may have been able to help us get the car out of the giant ditch but we couldn't find anyone, I don't think the telephone worked right if I recall, and we began discussing what we were going to do next. At this point My X-Wife began talking with some type of an accent that was hard to understand, I tried to tell her to knock it off, but it only got worse, to the point I had no idea what she was saying, almost like she was speaking pure gibberish.
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I woke up at about this point.
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Since thinking about it most of the day, the car clearly represents our marriage, but the failure to find help in getting it out of the ditch and to a repair shop, is also kind of telling. The damage was horrific, and it included mechanical as well as body work, but essentially, and theoretically, it was not un-salvagable.
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As obvious as that dream is, and what it is about, (the demise of our marriage, from the perspective of my subconscious) what I don't understand is the timing. Why after 4 years since I moved out of the house, and nearly 3 years since we have officially been divorced did I dream this?
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That is the best I can retell it, although in my heart I do know there are some nuances about it, that I just can't recall. I do think when we were in the limousine driving through the giant Castle like doors, we were extremely happy for being let into secret Disney World. This is essentially very close to how the dream played out in my subconscious.

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